Well, since A's ended, things have drastically changed. some for better, some for worse.
Driving, and some other stuffs have been awesome for me.
But, somehow, i feel lost, unappreciated, like my existance doesnt matter to anyone.
Its like i can just disappear and everyone will live their lives normally.
Its as if i have never meant anything to anyone.
Nobody looks for me no more. nobody drops a text to ask me how im doing no more.
nobody calls and asks me to hang out no more. well, maybe its just life as a single during holidays that i've not experienced for quite some time.
but, seriously, fuck sia. Things just had to go from bad to worse with me falling sick, rat running into my room, dad screaming at me in the middle of the night cause of my messy room.
Maybe a disappearing act would be good for me right now.
Wait. I am already invisible.
Im not expecting anyone to read this or even do something after reading this. cause then they'd be doing it for the sake of doing it. I'll get better o my own. its just a matter of getting used to it.
Music hasnt really helped much either. haizz..
Well, i can choose to emo out all day long if i want to, but i know that its not going to do me any good. i just wanted to let out my feelings that i can no longer pour out to anyone right now. once again, this is Lim NH, signing out.