Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Fuck This.
who woulda thought i'd have to make so many carrer deciding decisions at such an age? who woulda thought that i'd have to handle my life on my own? who woulda thought that everything would just crumble down on me when i need them the most? who woulda thought that i would crumble on myself? who woulda thought that the girl i thought was 'the one' for me would never love me again? who woulda thought that i'm still standing after such an ordeal?
NOBODY.
life is just such a winding road with loads of junctions, turns, bumps and even pot-holes. but, sometimes we gotta realise that which route we take doesnt really matter. what ,matters most is that we get where we want to. eventually. most importantly, soak in the sights, sceneries and sounds we experience along the way. Live Life.
yours sincerely,
Lim ah Lim.
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Saturday, September 18, 2010
I'm Guilty

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to say the things they gotta say
I've found everything i need
I never wanted anymore than i can see
I only want you to believe
If it's wrong to tell the truth,
Then what am i supposed to do?
When all i wanna do is speak my mind..
If it's wrong to do what's right,
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with ALL my heart's a crime,
Then i'm guilty.
I wanna give you all the things you never had.
Dont try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad.
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy.
I never wanted to live a lie.
If its wrong to tell the truth,
Then what am i supposed to do?
When all i wanna do is speak my mind
If its wrong to do what's right,
I'm prepared to testify.
If loving you with ALL my heart's a crime.
Then I'M GUILTY.
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Monday, September 6, 2010
I miss you. :'(
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Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Drifted Apart.
I swear, i have never missed anyone this much in my whole life. =( but, i know its for my own good. and, it has helped a little.. no more long phone calls, no more long hour meet-ups, no more fights, no more distractions. exactly what i aimed for.
but, why do i still feel like crap? isnt this supposed to help me?
haizz..
as days pass, we are growing further and further apart..
i know she doesnt ask for much. (just friends)
but, its too difficult for me.
everytime i see her, i think of what we had, and what we can have..
its a damn bloody sucky feeling lah..
and, she actually still said before we parted that i can still hold her hand..
haha.. and, how is that not supposed to let me raise my hopes?
haizz.. there's just so much for me to say.. but, there's just nobody i can really speak to about this.. i guess i'll just have to swallow all this on my own..
well, at least i know she has someone who really cares for her standing by her side now.. (probably even loves her)
upsettingly glad.
p.s, the little toungue at the back of my throat, (my uvula) swelled up to twice its size today. and, im still fasting although it hurts like f*ck. didnt even bother to see the doctor. haha.. on a normal day, i would use this as an excuse to take m.c haha..
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