Saturday, January 21, 2012
Bros Before Hoes.
seriously, what the fuck is going on? i mean, im practically living all alone right now. my weekends used to be all fun and filled with adventures. but, right now, both my best friends are attached and im left stone cold and alone in this world.
a few years back when i was in an awesome relationship, they were the ones who told me," dont forget about us", "make sure you put bros before hoes" and all that kinda crap. now, they are in their own relationships. not so easy now is it? i wouldnt know how to react if you did read this. but, seriously, i am truly affected ah. the few people that were always there for me are now all gone.
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Monday, December 13, 2010
Turn Of Events.
Well, since A's ended, things have drastically changed. some for better, some for worse.
Driving, and some other stuffs have been awesome for me.
But, somehow, i feel lost, unappreciated, like my existance doesnt matter to anyone.
Its like i can just disappear and everyone will live their lives normally.
Its as if i have never meant anything to anyone.
Nobody looks for me no more. nobody drops a text to ask me how im doing no more.
nobody calls and asks me to hang out no more. well, maybe its just life as a single during holidays that i've not experienced for quite some time.
but, seriously, fuck sia. Things just had to go from bad to worse with me falling sick, rat running into my room, dad screaming at me in the middle of the night cause of my messy room.
Maybe a disappearing act would be good for me right now.
Wait. I am already invisible.
Im not expecting anyone to read this or even do something after reading this. cause then they'd be doing it for the sake of doing it. I'll get better o my own. its just a matter of getting used to it.
Music hasnt really helped much either. haizz..
Well, i can choose to emo out all day long if i want to, but i know that its not going to do me any good. i just wanted to let out my feelings that i can no longer pour out to anyone right now. once again, this is Lim NH, signing out.
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Goodbye.
so i tried.
tried to be what i used to be.
tried to be the man.
i tried to do all i can.
i wish i could turn back the hands of time.
and find out what went wrong.
but i know that this is meant to be.
so this is hard for me to say.
but,
goodbye... goodbye.. goodbye..
i know that i'll learn from all my mistakes.
but its too late to change and now its time to walk away.
so, goodbye..
just know that this is hard for me
thing are just not the same.
everytime i hear your name,
i wanna scream out loud.
i dont know what is left to me
but what we have is now a memory
eventhough i know this is hard for me.
but, goodbye.
it hurts to have to leave.
but who am i to say we aren't meant to be?
our love started with hello.
and ends with this GOODBYE. ('=
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Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Fuck This.
who woulda thought i'd have to make so many carrer deciding decisions at such an age? who woulda thought that i'd have to handle my life on my own? who woulda thought that everything would just crumble down on me when i need them the most? who woulda thought that i would crumble on myself? who woulda thought that the girl i thought was 'the one' for me would never love me again? who woulda thought that i'm still standing after such an ordeal?
NOBODY.
life is just such a winding road with loads of junctions, turns, bumps and even pot-holes. but, sometimes we gotta realise that which route we take doesnt really matter. what ,matters most is that we get where we want to. eventually. most importantly, soak in the sights, sceneries and sounds we experience along the way. Live Life.
yours sincerely,
Lim ah Lim.
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Saturday, September 18, 2010
I'm Guilty

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to say the things they gotta say
I've found everything i need
I never wanted anymore than i can see
I only want you to believe
If it's wrong to tell the truth,
Then what am i supposed to do?
When all i wanna do is speak my mind..
If it's wrong to do what's right,
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with ALL my heart's a crime,
Then i'm guilty.
I wanna give you all the things you never had.
Dont try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad.
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy.
I never wanted to live a lie.
If its wrong to tell the truth,
Then what am i supposed to do?
When all i wanna do is speak my mind
If its wrong to do what's right,
I'm prepared to testify.
If loving you with ALL my heart's a crime.
Then I'M GUILTY.
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Monday, September 6, 2010
I miss you. :'(
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Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Drifted Apart.
I swear, i have never missed anyone this much in my whole life. =( but, i know its for my own good. and, it has helped a little.. no more long phone calls, no more long hour meet-ups, no more fights, no more distractions. exactly what i aimed for.
but, why do i still feel like crap? isnt this supposed to help me?
haizz..
as days pass, we are growing further and further apart..
i know she doesnt ask for much. (just friends)
but, its too difficult for me.
everytime i see her, i think of what we had, and what we can have..
its a damn bloody sucky feeling lah..
and, she actually still said before we parted that i can still hold her hand..
haha.. and, how is that not supposed to let me raise my hopes?
haizz.. there's just so much for me to say.. but, there's just nobody i can really speak to about this.. i guess i'll just have to swallow all this on my own..
well, at least i know she has someone who really cares for her standing by her side now.. (probably even loves her)
upsettingly glad.
p.s, the little toungue at the back of my throat, (my uvula) swelled up to twice its size today. and, im still fasting although it hurts like f*ck. didnt even bother to see the doctor. haha.. on a normal day, i would use this as an excuse to take m.c haha..
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